I learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are
Running ’round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You’re gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don’t come back for me
Who do you think you are

I hear you’re asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

And learn to live half alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are
Running ’round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You’re gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don’t come back for me
Who do you think you are
Dear, it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
Cause you broke all your promises
And now you’re back
You don’t get to get me back

And who do you think you are
Running ’round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You’re gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don’t come back for me
Don’t come back at all

And who do you think you are
Running ’round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You’re gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don’t come back for me
Don’t come back at all

Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?

I lost myself….At first I don’t realize…
until my bro warned me a few times, but I still don’t admit.

love can’t beat the obstacles, unless we’re in the same page.
That’s what I learn, and I have to face the truth -

I ‘m still weak and unclear.

But I will push myself forward much harder for my good sake … not for particular person … but for people who really love me.

I won’t let you guys disappointed … no more. I mean it.

More sea breeze, the worm was still crawling..
chuckled

So I just did me some talkin’ to the sun
And I said I didn’t like the way he got things done
Sleepin’ on the job
Those raindrops are fallin’ on my head, they keep fallin’

But there’s one thing I know
The blues they send to meet me won’t defeat me
It won’t be long till happiness steps up to greet me

Raindrops keep fallin’ on my head
But that doesn’t mean my eyes will soon be turnin’ red
Cryin’s not for me
‘Cause I’m never gonna stop the rain by complainin’
Because I’m free
Nothin’s worryin’ me

CHECK LIST
-SUPPORT
-energy boost !!!
-Patience
-Do not Disturb Sign.

this past weekend, I did feel upset too… because of ur response … I did really want to tell u .. my moody feelings are partly came from u … when u asked me on Sunday nite. However, I ‘m not supposed to let u know at this stage. U did reminded me I should be careful on money issues w/ my friend if I really go for it.

I know it’s will be a tough time … salary cut drastically. And I ‘m just on recovering, my body is not so fitted. I hope I won’t be dying that young or I should I say .. I need to stay firm and stand long … until I get a nice crib and sustainable income … of ‘cos , better be having someone that I love to build and share those together.

I ‘m working towards them ! Here I come !

And I don’t care what they say
I’m wanna be with you
I’m wanna be with you
I’m wanna be with you
我不在乎怎么做
I’m gonna be with you
I’m gonna be with you
I’m gonna be with you

Seems like every day that go by things are getting’ harder
Want to be the one that give you the whole enchilada
Cause I know what my baby like, I lean you on that Prada
You ain’t got to match with the shoes
我知道每一次的沟通 就会让我爱你更多
每一次的拥抱 温暖让我不再怯懦
爱是真实的触摸 美好或伤痛
Keepin it always true
And no one knows
What I’m into you
Cause you’ll never know what its like to walk in our shoes
没人会懂 是我们的梦
当再多困难只要牵手 就变得不同
That’s why we’ll break through

You are everything in my life see the joy you bring
And ain’t no one I compare you to
And I know that you will never
walk away from me no matter what
And that’s why I plan to do the same thing for you
And I want you to know

Be in my life with me
You know you my queen B
show you the finer things in life and places you wanted to be
its trips to Miami,rockin Tenjune NYC
party up at club Bling till 6 in da morning
don’t want yo body figure sexually
I wanna pop u figure annually
showing you so security
U dun gota worry B Satisfaction guaranteed
You don’t need another G
You can have it all in me
You like morphine you soothe me
Thru da pain and da struggles it gets hot you cool me
Cus You’re a wifely quality qualified
Warranty you certified
You know how to get me high hotter than a suger ride
U know when you want it you need it you know I got it
U know when you want me you need me you give it
So whenever in doubt you can count on me
whatever it is you be under my wing
Whenever you down you can put it on me
And wherever you go you be rocking my ring

And I don’t care what they say
I’m wanna be with you
I’m wanna be with you
I’m wanna be with you
我不在乎 怎么做
I’m gonna be with you
I’m gonna be with you
I’m gonna be with you
And I don’t care what they say
I wanna be with you
I wanna be with you
I wanna be with you

This song is keep looping in my head, and I hope u will know my feelings.

Then I lied on the bed, and being transferred to the operation room. I saw the Professor, and many nurses. I didn’t have any clothes on me, except the purple gown. Then, nurses came to perform disinfect procedure, and I heard the Dr said, he would do a test first b4 performing the RF ablation on me. When Professor started puncturing holes on both of my thighs, it was painful indeed, even I was given all painkiller all the way.

As this surgery requires the patient to be awake all the time, I just have local anesthesia. But I could still feel the pain whenever he moved the tubing and gave out the RF in my heart. At the beginning, I could still chat with a nurse who sat next to me, she has a daughter who also studying in US. She asked me questions on the school that her daughter is attending. After that, more painful came.

I heard the Dr 1st mapped out the problem areas in my heart, as far as I could hear , there were 5 spots. It did took a while to catch them. Once he located them, he ordered the nurse to release the RF. My Pain started…and it was getting more painful… until I said,”I can’t stand it…”

After a while, I was given more painkiller …and I soon felt half asleep, but once the RF was released to kill my problem areas. I was awake again. x_x This painful process lasted for a few hours…I became more tired as time goes by. Professor had performed ablation to my problem areas, but once he did the checking. He found there was still sth wrong. He searched again, and I heard he was getting tired. As he asked his assistant to give him a chair. I was quite afraid when he said there’s still sth wrong w/ the diagram. Then he told me, he would only do 10 minutes, as longer time will cause me life threatening danger… At last, he found the last problem area, and he did the checking again. The diagrams shown positive results. The tubing was removed. More pain, but I felt released….and I heard I was given 9 shots of painkiller.

Then, my both thighs were wrapped tightly to prevent bleeding. I was transferred to a special care ward later. My Dad came, and he starred at me. My mum came afterward and wiped my face and gave me water. I was so so thirsty. Not long after, Professor came to see me. He told us the surgery was successful, and I need to take rest. Then, I saw a familiar face, wearing a magenta blouse w/ see thru sleeves.

I was so pleased and thankful to see my parents and you right after my surgery. So unexpected. I thought u won’t come. But u did shown up, and brought me a nice drink to me. U told me the drink was less sweet. I replied,”gd choice, the drink + u = very sweet” hahaha

My mum stayed till 7pm. U stayed w/ me almost 3+ hrs… u came all the way from ur home to see me. I felt touched. By holding each other’s pinky, I made a promise to u. I would treat my body gd and won’t be a crazy drinker anymore. as soon as my body condition back to normal. I will go traveling w/ u. I saw u smiled, and I was delighted. I held ur hand purposely… and how come ur hands are so cold? me as a patient, hands even warmer ! I asked to have dinner asap.. though I wanted to keep u longer by my side. miss u.

I ‘m on recovery now. Feeling glad. we talked to each other every day. I admit I do miss u. knowing u will have classes soon, wondering if we can meet up as usual. Just now, I got ur call. U do care about me, and asked me about my health progress. Less worries

U came out from big bucket … and looked relax~ we went to a Taiwanese rest. Food is so so … a bit oily to me. But I saw u enjoy it .. after that, we were thinking where to go … As u need to try out new foundation, we went to a cosmetic shop near Sogo … Then, I said.. I Really want to play arcade games ar … U told me the game center moved to 6/F !!! and I asked u 3 times – “Are we going are we going are we going ” .. I was so much like a kid .. yay .. happy !

we played Maria cart racing … photo hunt (not very easy ar) … matching food ingredients …and threw coins on Rainbows la .. u won’t 3 times loh .. but I won’t nothing .. never mind.. I still enjoyed. As we waiting for lift, it was so long. I suggested to take “photo sticker”… so old school… like 10years ago !!!
It turned out ok … though we didn’t know to control the machine eh… hee hee

I really like to spend time w/ ya … and I remember u asked me “are u tired?”. I said “yes, but when I see u, my tired is gone..”

Though we couldn’t play longer, u need to attend class tmr morning and a govt exam in the afternoon. Add oil ! ok ~ save it for Sunday la ~ I look forward to it .

U ‘re more active than few weeks ago, I feel pleased. On the other hand, I do feel jealous, when I saw u wearing a bracelet which somebody gave u as bday present.